Welcome to the c word
I rarely show the world what is going on inside it is just not my style. I hide pain and constantly worry about worrying other people and how they will feel about how I am feeling. I keep my problems to myself and sometimes even from my closest friends. Well not this time.
I have been on the c word roller-coaster (I'm calling it the c word to go easy on the faint hearted) for over three weeks now and have decided it is a good idea to write down what's happened, happening and going to happen then whoever wants to keep up to date can without being forced to hear about it through emails from me. Because you will all have days where you just can't or don't want to hear about this. I get that it’s ok.
I hope not but you also might meet people or know people who go through something similar and it might just help them in some way to know they are not alone and when they fall apart it is ok because who wouldn’t. When you read this please forgive grammar and spelling etc I have not slept for three days and sorry too if it is up and down that is pretty much how I am doing most days.
- Tuesday 23rd February 2010
1ST FEBRUARY 2010 - DOCTOR REFERRED ME TO BREAST CLINIC FOR SCREENING
10TH FEBRUARY 2010 - HAD ULTRASOUND, MAMMOGRAPHY, BIOPSY
19TH FEBRUARY 2010 - GOT TOLD I HAD CANCER BY ACCIDENT!
21ST FEBRUARY 2010 - SAW DOCTOR AND MACMILLAN NURSE
22ND FEBRUARY 2010 - GOT OFFICIAL DIAGNOSIS AND RECOMMENDATION FOR OPERATION AND CHEMOTHERAPY. ON WAITING LIST FOR FOUR WEEKS WITH BRIGHTON.
23RD FEBRUARY 2010 - GOT APPOINTMENT FOR FERTILITY EXPERT - 4TH MARCH 10AM.
24TH FEBRUARY 2010 - GOT REFERRAL APPOINTMENT AT ROYAL MARSDEN FOR SECOND OPINION - 3RD MARCH 10AM.