Welcome to the c word
I rarely show the world what is going on inside it is just not my style. I hide pain and constantly worry about worrying other people and how they will feel about how I am feeling. I keep my problems to myself and sometimes even from my closest friends. Well not this time.
I hope not but you also might meet people or know people who go through something similar and it might just help them in some way to know they are not alone and when they fall apart it is ok because who wouldn’t. When you read this please forgive grammar and spelling etc I have not slept for three days and sorry too if it is up and down that is pretty much how I am doing most days.
- Tuesday 23rd February 2010
Tuesday, 9 March 2010
Calmer
So the last draining appointment was days ago and the operation is in two weeks today so that is two whole weeks with only one little doctors appointment to go to on Thursday. Thanks to the kindness of Nigel and Carrie sweeping the boys off for an adventure and Phil's mum and Robin having us round I have actually managed to have time to do what I need and squeeze in the occasion nap on the sofa, ooh and eat cake.
When everything is all calm like now I feel sort of guilty like I am making a fuss over nothing even writing this blog because I look fine on the outside, well normal anyway, and feel ok so hmm what's the big deal. Then I remember ah cancer yes that old thing is sort of a big deal round here and I have still got it. Doh. But this naive bubble is quite comfy so if it's ok with you I plan to be drifting along in it for a few days at least. I am in Brighton till Thursday and up for seeing people, if people are up for being seen : ). Today is officially a good day. More than good, it's a normal day. Off to uni soon xx
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